Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Enjoy the Grace.

Bucky & I listened to a beautiful sermon a few nights ago . Although the words were many (as most sermons tend to contain) there were three that remained in my mind/heart/soul/being: Enjoy the Grace. God gives us grace DAILY. Sometimes His grace gives us energy to ENJOY LIFE FULLY, other days it simply gives us the ability to ENDURE. How my days are a battle of this swinging pendulum. I have found myself the past few days repeating those words in my head as often as I breathe: Enjoy the Grace, Enjoy the Grace, Enjoy. The. Grace...as another friend said on her blog, "pray not to miss this".

Days with 2 small beings are somewhat bi-polar...some days are amazingly sweet where I feel my heart jump and tears swell somewhat constantly at the beauty in my house---sweet little feet on my floors, giggles & squeals from both children as they enjoy each other, "ABC" songs missing quite a few letters most days, books, artwork, walks...pure sweetness. Other days are...hard. My house is a wreck and any attempt to remedy the problem is amazingly unraveling directly below my steps by 4 little hands. There is screaming, snatching, tears, drama, just ugliness. Those days I feel my chest swell but I am pretty sure it is a reflection of my blood pressure bursting through my head. And somewhere in the midst of our days there is Grace poured on every inch of it---grace to ENDURE, grace to ENJOY.

Today, God's grace poured down on our family as we spent our afternoon at the hospital with Bo who so affectionately told his PawPaw after a full recovery he "broke his brain". How thankful I was to hear his words and know he was okay. I never thought that we would be celebrating a mere 4 stitches to the head and a discharge to go home. After a long, hard fall from the top of the bleachers it was the best case scenario as we watched our little boy go from lethargic/not talking/stunned to his sweet self. So scary, so awful, and yet so redeeming. Certainly "just a fall" and the first of many stitches but yet so close and so revealing of our hearts and our need for God grace daily.

So, in this moment I am able to Enjoy the gifts God has given me. I am beyond BLESSED to be a mom to two amazingly sweet children, a wife to a tender man that weeps at his sons pain, and a friend to so many that stepped into support us tonight. Pray not to miss this!